1/30/10
Hahahaha.
I read my blog posts from last year until now. They were just so interesting to read them, as if i was reading as a third-person even though i was the one who wrote all these. Like i was reading about someone's life, but in fact it was mine.
2009 was so exciting, i realised. So many things had happened, so many changes in my thoughts/emotions/attitudes. It was truly epic.
And i got myself to read
your messages (which i've kept until now) to relieve the past. At first i hesitated, but i decided that if i truly wanted myself to move on, i had to face it no matter how hard it takes.
It felt as though everything that happened half a year ago was, in fact, just yesterday. I observed myself getting happy about
us again, and then watched myself if i were to feel like rock-bottom again.
Nope, i didn't. Guessed i have really found the serenity in my heart this time round; they will just stay as happy memories from now onwards, nothing else.
All these are deliberate acts of checking myself emotionally, and i think i deserve a pass today (thankfully?).
Because this is what i needed most before i enter the next phase of my life.
(But i can't find myself doing self-encouragement like in the past. LOL. So i'll just end here)
=D
