8/30/09
No point fighting it all, I'll still lose anyway.
What matters is how i deal with the loss and turn it into a win next time round.
I made a trip down memory lane today,
thinking of the past we've spent together
before i forget them someday.
The 3 months brought me so much joy
which nobody/nothing else can.
i want to keep them as part of my memories
for as long as possible.
I'll put them aside when i have to,
but letting go is not an option.
I miss you.
8/29/09
Guess i'm back to blogging, but only for selected readers this time round =)
I never really like to rant, complain or "emo" in front of others, because i don't see why they have to bear with me and my feelings (irrational at times too).
But that dosen't mean i don't need an avenue to do so; i'm still a human being after all.
I'm emotionally weak, so be it. I'm just being myself, the real szewei.
I admit i'm not good at managing relationships, be it love, friendships or family. But if you are reading this now, please understand that i'm making an effort to maintain our ties.
It's my sincere wish to learn and treasure the closer people around me, and my first step in doing so is to open up to others more. That's something she asked me to do, if she still remembers.
Psalm 90:12
"Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom."
Let's just admit it: i'm not alright at all.
Deep inside me i still feel the hurt.
The smiles people see on me are mostly forced,
I can barely manage a genuine smile now.
But hey, that's because you are more than significant in my life,
and you've definitely brightened up my days all these while.
All that i ask for is that you will let me know that you are truly happy,
and tell me when i can help to make you feel better at times,
because then i would know all these i'm going through now is worthwhile. =)
因为你始终依然还是我生命里, 一个奇迹般的相遇.
One year on..
Time to grow up and mature, boy. There is a hell lot of responsibilities and burdens waiting for you ahead.
And right now there is one i have to clear soon, though i know it will take quite some time.Come what may, szewei is all-ready to try and give his all again.
Thanks to all teachers and friends who believe in me. I'll not give up without a good fight again ;)
Though at times i can't help but disappoint myself and others, at least i know i'm trying..
8/23/09
"
Even if i have a fall, let it be a good one."
That, i told myself back then.
And it was really a good one, though it hurts deeply.
I'm more than willing to walk that same path again, that long path winding towards the beginning of the story.
谢谢你.
Tonight is the night of 22nd August 2009 =)
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远,又何必去改变你走过的世界,你用你的指尖阻止我说再见,想象你在身边在完全失去之前.你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远,或许命运的签只让我们遇见,只让我们相恋这一季的秋天,飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片,要我怎么捡.
8/21/09
Guess i'm more or less leaving blogging for quite some time.
Till then =)
Heal us, oh Lord.It really hurts.
8/15/09
All of a sudden, it began to dawn on me that i may not reach my goals after all.
I feel so... demoralised? Or should i say i'm just staring at reality right in its face?
All along i knew what i am aiming for, and what i'm in for if i ever achieve my aims. And i keep telling myself that so long as i do my best, i have no worries.
Because i knew my attitude is there, and my body is prepared to take it all already.
But time is running out, yet i'm not making much progress towards my goals.
It's the make or break moment, now or never already.
8/13/09
若非一番寒彻骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香.
老帅给予的这番话, 我会一直提醒自己, 绝对不能忘记!
8/11/09
2 years on, and the same problem is back to haunt.
Please, i really have to focus already.
8/9/09
If i ever had any phobias, it would be tackling biology papers T.T
Hmmmm.
8/8/09
Counting down to Prelims, like what i did last year for promos.
(spare me any flaming!)
5 Weeks more. 3 weeks for GP.
We are just, so different.
Words.
Do you honestly mean what you said?
Had it come to a point when you're saying what you said simply because it's out of obligation, not out of your own will to do so?
Take some time to reflect: In the way we relate to people, are we being truthful, or are we just trying to get our way through by using superficial words?
8/1/09
待人处事,最真贵的不是过程,更不是后果.
是一颗真诚,无邪的心.
敷衍或逃避绝对不是个选择.
