5/12/08
Robotic day again. Everything follow timetable and go wherever i'm required to. At least i still have a mind of my own, and i don't have to take instructions like a robot.
Just some random thoughts i had over the day. During econs lessons i heard someone saying AJ basketball boys entered the semis already. My heartfelt congratulations to them, though somewhat i felt that weird feeling in me all over again. I was thinking, perhaps i should had been in the team, this year or the next. One reason i chose AJ is due to its bball too, as i really wanted to pursue it further. I could had stayed and strived for next year's team, even though i know that chances may be slim.
Yet i took the path of being a councilor. Thoughts of being one never once went through my mind, until the end of orientation 2, when i realised my passion for serving the school. The satisfaction of working together to achieve the common goal is overwhelming too. And so i picked up the application form months ago and here i am, a council elect. Please dun misunderstand me, i did not once regretted it. The road may be bumpy at times, but i know i am determined to reach the end. Its just that...when you have too many chairs waiting for you, you can't help but to desire more when you are already sitting on one. Typical human nature i would say. If only one day i could pick up the ball again and play for AJ, but i know its but a facade, not the reality. Nevertheless, now i know where God is leading me, and i'll follow the road through.
Another characteristic of human i would like to point out: The hunger for power. People often desire for more of authority, for countless reasons which i just can't figure out. Does having so much power means a lot? Does being in power satisfies your inner desires? Did the lion chose to dominate the jungle? I would think now, because some are meant to be good leaders while some are not. Yet people seek to rise up the authority ranks regardless of their abilities, which irks me a lot. Been through it several times this year already, no names mentioned though.
Peace out.
